I often ponder over this word call "Love". When I was in high school, I never told a girl that I loved her or at least meant it. In high school, the word "love" was something that you "think" you knew about from watching television or mentioned in a love scene of a movie. While I was in college, I don't recall telling a young woman that I ever loved here. At that time, I was still in that "macho" athlete phase of my life. The word "love" was not in my vocabulary of thoughtful words to say to a college girl. But, I would say that I would "love" t get to know you, I would "love" to get your telephone number, I would love to visit you at your dorm, and I would love to see you again sometime. But, "I love you, Room 101." was not one of the courses that I had to take in college for my degree requisite. After college, I may have mentioned the word "love" somewhere in a sentence to a woman as long as it rewarded me with the response that I was searching for from her. I KNOW I WAS NOT THE ONLY ONE ALONE IN THAT TYPE OF THINKING BACK IN THE DAY, FELLAS !!! But I digress... What I was eventually trying to get around to it that I am in my late 30's now. And, it is still as hard for me to say it now, as I had the same difficulties of saying while I was in my twenties. Now, to get the record straight, I mean actually telling a woman that you are "in love" with them. I have told a woman or two that I "love" them... not just to get that little "something, something" either. I think my reluctant with telling a woman that word, now, is because my mature side realizes that the word "love" holds more of an emotional meaning to a woman. And, I may be wrong in that frame of thinking... to assume... that is true about a woman... There may e some men out there that would enjoy being told by their special someone that they "love" them. I was recently told, by a woman I had dated in the past that she did love me while we were dating. We broke up back in 1997 and now you tell me this? Talk about an awkward pause on the telephone with the crickets chirping and the whole nine yards while I figure out how to respond to that. How do you respond to such a thing? Answer: You don't... I "taught" myself since 1997 not to just throw the word "love" out there to to a woman like it was a softball or roll of toilet paper... I mean, does one really know when is the right time to use the word "love" and mean it? And, I may be just making a lot out of nothing in regards to the meaning of "love". It could simply be that I may not have found that special woman, yet, that would easily cause me to say "love" to her? But, then, the question I would have to ask myself is, "If not meeting that special woman is causing me to not to say the "L" word, then, when will that day come for me ever meet that special woman?" Answer: I don't know if that day will ever come, at all, and there lies the enigma that is my "love" problem. I will have to get back with you on the outcome of that issues as I will still be trying to figure that deal out ...