I'm like any other guy.. (or at least what we are conditioned to think of ourselves as being) - I've got a slight pre-occupation with the whole copulation thing... and at the moment it's really getting silly. I am thinking about it morning noon and night... I don't seem to be able to talk to a woman without imagining getting a blow job from them.

Not that I get to do it nearly as much as I'd like, and I'm not sure that the reality is even what I want. It's the whole imagination and fantasy of it. I've been in a relationship since.. well, last century, and that whole side of things has just faded away a bit. We both work, we're always tired and it so we don't do it a lot. That means that I don't last all that long when we do get around to it and it gets to be a vicious circle as, let's be honest, I'm probably not that great a ride!!

Sometimes I get a bit frustrated but I don't think I'd ever cheat though. I don't really want to be with another woman, although I do constantly fantasize about it. Sex is a pretty messy and haphazard old business and I guess I can't be bothered with the reality of it. The idea of it in my head drives me crazy though. Sharing those fantasies with anonymous women online has become a bit of an addiction.. and one I'm not looking to shake off. I'm bored of porn for a start. The web made it freely available and it lost its power. The excitement of something secret new, anonymous and pretty well harmless helps me get through my sexless relationship in a benign way.. well more benign than going to a 'professional' or cheating in the usual way... or maybe I just need to get something out of my system?

I stumbled across this site a few days ago.. It's been a bit of a guilty pleasure ever since. Sneaking a look at a few of the many sexy pictures and making the odd comment.. I'm sorry if they are a bit banal and lacking imagination, but my excuse is that I'm new.

Some of the blogs that I have read are very sexy and arousing as well. I don't know if I will go down that road here or not. It depends if anyone is reading!! I'd probably cringe the next time I came back and read any of 'those' kind of thoughts that I had left for people to read. People tend to be more interested when women are writing those things.. I'm not sure if women want to know what men think as they can probably guess pretty damn quickly anyway!

Ah, sod it. I'll just write whatever I'm thinking about and you can be the one cringing. Or puking. Or maybe enjoying it but I doubt that!