Title: It Escapes Me

As I look off into the sunset i'm reminded of you.
 The way you make me feel, the way you make my mind wander, the way
you make me smile.
 My eyes shine so bright when I'm in your presence
 and my spirit is all a glow.
 My being is at peace when you are near,
 and my heart is filled with cheer,
 and my soul is over taken by love.
 my mind is clear of all worries and troubles,
 my clouds began to dissapate,
 as I stare into the eyes of my soulmate,
 as i am in the presence of the one that I love.
 In the presence of the one I will love even after the end of time.
 You were mines before the foundation of the earth
and you will be mines when that foundation crumbles
 or better yet ends in flames.
 But not with the kind of flames that burns in my heart
 Not with the kind of flames that can be seen in my eyes when you are near.
 not with the kind of flames that sets up in my soul whenever I think of you,
 whenever I see you,
 whenever I hear your voice,
 The flames of my love.
 The flames of my desires
 The flames of my passion
 The flames that can only began to burn by you
 when you ignite my fire
The type of fire that can only be started by you.
 You don't know the things you do to me,
 You don't know the things that my eyes see
 When you are around me
 You don't know the love that wishes to be able to escape my soul
 and take hold of you
 and never let you go.
 A love that is so deep
 that only God can see the depths
 A love so deep that not even the oceans, seas, rivers, lakes, ponds,
and streams together could ever reach.
 I'll never love another the way that I am loving you.
 And the truth is... I don't want to.
 I only for the rest of my life, and after I die, want to be in love with you
 The man my spirit itself, even if it were to stand alone, yearns for.





Title: Another Level of Love



I remember a time when I traveled a dark and lonely road, staring up
at the stars shinning so bright, and of you I thought.

For you in my heart I began to feel the unconditional love that I hold with in.

Compassion and love conquered my being.

And all I wanted to do was love you.

Hold you, kiss your lips, look you in your eyes and watch your spirit
as it begans to smile.

Not wanting to be mad at you any more. But instead wanting to hold you
tight and never let go.

Just wanting to kiss your face with such intense intimacy.

I can't explain the feeling this is I hold for you inside.

Another level of love.

Title: Closer than Close

Closer than Close that's how we'll always be. Closer than close is the
story between you  and me. I apologize for the thing I kept... Never
meant for you to think that we weren't better than that... Because
better than that we are... The man I want to have me... The one that
makes me feel whole and complete... The one that brings me joy and
happiness... The only man to ever do so... Better than that we are...
Better than that we were... And better than that we will be even after
the end of all eternity... I love you... And better than that is the
story of you and me. Come lay on my bossom and fall asleep... And know
that closer than close is where I feel that we belong.

Mr. T this is the poem that I was asking you did you read on my away
message that night you became upset with me entitled: Closer Than
Close... In the poem was the apology you were looking for lol... I had
apologized for it... You just hadn't been able to read it... But
verbal apologies are best anyways... Love ya sweetie.

Title: Come, Sit With Me

Come and sit with me by the fire side and gaze into my eyes.
Become mesmerized by the flames that flicker in my soul.



Title: ~Take Me~

Take my hand and walk with me as I stroll through the lillies.
Watering them by night.
Take my hadn and run with me as I jog through the town.
Painting it red.
Take my hand and sit with me in the cold dark room.
Where I think.
Take my hand and dance with me in the warm bright room.
..>..>Where I reflect.
Take me by the hand and let me lead you through my world.

Title: You Possess the Key


Come to me during the day and whisk me away. Take me to a romantic
secluded spot. Where I can feast on the richness of your love. Feed me
chocolate covered strawberries and watch the candle light flicker in
my eyes. Watch as my spirit smiles and begans to glow at the thought
of knowing you forever. Spend the night with me. Let it be a night of
complete intimacy. Filled with moments that we will cherish for all
eternity. I might hold the lock, but you possess the key.

Title: Even After the End of Time

When I close my eyes at night it's the image of you that I see. And
before the night is over it will be of you that I have dreamed. When I
wake up from my slumber you are always on my mind. And it is you my
darling that I will love even after the end of time.

Title: Consummate

Give me a night of intimacy. Touch the depths of my soul. Make me know
what it feels like to be a woman, whole and complete. Stare into my
eyes, look into the
depths of my soul and listen with your heart. Here my soul when it
says, "I love you, and I always will." Be my first, be my last, be my
one and only. Take my hand and run away with me and lets let our souls
unite throughout all of eternity. Consummate.

Title: Cherish
Gaze upon my sleeping face. Become mesmorized by my soft but strong
and subtle features. Trace the outline of my beautiful lips and then
kiss them ever so gently as not to wake me. Lay your head on my chest
and fall asleep on the natural pillows that I allow you to call your
own. And dream that you are watching me from afar. Love me until the
end of all eternity.



Title: *You Are Who I love*

You say no one understands you. And that you don't understand
yourself. But little
do you know, I honestly do. How?
Because at one point in time I stood exactly in your shoes. But
enough about that.

The way you make me feel inside, is indescribeable.
When my days are filled with emotions undeciferable to me, your voice
is the only voice,
that drives the dark emotions away.
You bring a light to my life that the whole world is able to see.
I don't know if you can relate to the beautfiul things you do to me.

Incidents happen that make us look back and reflect. Causeing us to
pinpoint moments
we had with that special someone that we never want to forget.
And when that dark moment came, I grabbed life by the reigns, and with
it death was slain.
I refused to have a permanent rain cloud over my life.
Out of my mouth I spoke death to death, and behold you have life.

These are the thoughts that consume my mind. The emotions that have
set up camp in my heart.
Now I don't mean for this to be all sad, but these are the things that
wish to escape tonight.
I never again want to think about how it would be to live without you.
In my mind that's unfathomable.
To my being it's plain wrong.
Functioning is near impossible without you in my world.
And music looses it's meaning.
Life looses it's fervor.

This might sound strange but... I can see myself living without you.
But when that thought almost became a reality, I couldn't fathom
living without you.

I thought that I loved you before.
But in that moment I began to know that:

I love you beyond words. And that I refuse to let anything take you
away from me.
You are that one true friend that I will cherish beyond a life time.
That one true friend who's side it's not meant for me to ever leave.
..>..>
I love you with a love that runs deeper than my thoughts.
I love you with a love that surpasses my soul.
I love you with every fiber of my being.
That's just it, plain and simple, I love you.

I desire you in a way that I've desired no other man in life.
My heart is not capable of loveing another man the way that I love you.

I see images of you when I wake up.
Images of you when I go to sleep.
And in my dreams you're always there.

But no need to worry because I'm not obsessed
I'm just in love beyond words.
How did it come to be this way?
Sweetheart I have not a clue.
One day it just so happened I woke up and I was in love with you.
And that love flourished and grew.
But my love is forever growing for you.
My love has reached maturity.

When your love reaches maturity, you can be content with a nontitled
relationship because knowing the one you love is enough to live by.
Your love is then able to feed off of itself. It provides it's own nourishment.
Now I could share with you the lesson of love, but this poem is
supposed to be about you.

I carry thoughts of you with me where ever the soles of my feet tread upon.

When I hear your voice I began to know a rariety...
Happiness
Not many things make me happy, but this you already know.

The sound of your voice drives my storm clouds away.
It makes my days all sunny and bright.
It's your voice that I long  to hear when I'm up late at night.
It's your arms I long to fall asleep in.
It's your lips I long to kiss every day.
It's you I long to make love to every chance that I get.

 My love, it's you.

Your eyes captivate me.
They mesmorize me, in your honey brown eyes I become lost.
It's your perfectly brown lips I long to kiss for all eternity.
It's you that I want, It's you whom I love.

I've noticed that I only put up away messages when you are able to read them.
..>..>
It's you my loins desire.

I often reminisce about the night you played "Ribbon in the sky," and
"When was the last time that you heard me say," by Stevie Wonder for
me.
That night was filled with peace and serenity.
On that night I found out you loved me.

And I'm hopeing that I've still got your mind.
Remember that? I do. I still have it written in my journal.
And I just want you to know that you've got my mind too.

But for me it doesn't stop there. You've got my heart as well.
And you also hold the key.

My desire is for you.

Your aroma drives me wild.
When I'm around you I just want to hold you and never let go.
To hold you seems so right.

You are where I want to be.

My love is for you and only you.

*You are who I love.*

~Watering The Lilies~

As I sit by the fireside and stare into the burning embers, The earth
shed's it's tears.

As I ride in the car and stare out the window, the clouds begin to cry.

Happy in the day so it seems, but it's nothing but an illusion.
Because at night,

The sun, it sheds a tear.

The stars shine so bright in the clear sky, but that's only to mask the fear.

The sky, it smiles, just to keep from crying.

The wind, it whistles, just to keep from sighing.

The lightning, it strikes, just to keep from dieing.

Inside.

Trying to keep hope alive.

The thunder, it claps, just to keep from sobbing.

The snow, it's cold, just to keep from spontaneously combusting.

And water is wet, just to keep from hurting as it falls and hits the
ground repeatedly.

The night is dark so you can't see it's tears.

The day is bright, just so you can't see it's fears.

And the lion is humble because he knows that any day could be his last.

And the flowers bloom to keep from withering away.

And I keep them alive by watering the lilies at night.

The poem may speak of the elements of this world... Dieing and crying
and withering away... All in which are the true colors of this
unorthodoxed world... Everything else is a dressed up lie... A
fasod... But a good lie, to give us hope... Not false hope but real
hope... Things do change for the better... Sometimes you just have to
wait... Time is of the Essence and Patience is the Virtue that is
heaven sent. But know that the poem isn't refering to this world...
But to a person... Who most of the time feels like the elements... But
she knows that one day... Her day shall come.

Title: Deep, But Even That's an Understatement

As I lay here cuddled up with my teddy bear my heart speaks of things
too deep for words.

I can try and portray the feelings through my poetry, but the words
are too deep for me to speak.

No one but God will ever see the deepness of my thoughts. The deepness
in my heart.

The deepness of my spirit.

The deepness of my soul.

Words don't convey what my heart wants to say.

And they never will be able to.

But if you look deep into my eyes and peer into my soul, you will see
that the depths have no end.

That my thoughts know no boundaries.

That my feelings reach a depth uncharted.

But can you handle the true look of my eyes.

Can you handle staring into my soul and seeing my hearts only demise.

Can you handle knowing the depths of my pain.

Can you handle knowing the depths of my thoughts.

Can you handle knowing the depths of my hearts suffering.

Can you handle knowing how deep my love travels.

Can you handle it.

You may look in my eyes and they seem bright and full of life. But
that's only the mask of something that could penetrate your soul.

Stare for a little while longer and even though the expression of my
eyes might not change, you will begin to see what my eyes really look
like.

You will see them change right in front of your face as your soul reads my soul.

A look you will never forget.

And you'll probaly ask God, Why?

Why does she hurt so much?

Why are her eyes joyless?

Why does her soul not know happiness?

Why does her spirit cry behind those smileing eyes?

Why does her soul sob behind that radiant smile?

Why does she really want to cry when she is laughing?

Why do her thoughts run so deep?

And my God, why did you let me see it?

In my pictures my eyes will even change if you stare long enough, if
you try to look and see.

Because a picture doesn't only capture the essence of what I portray,
but it also captures the true essence of me.

I call myself Essence and you all may think you know why. But rest
assure, that description is not a lie.

I am the Essence of what every man wants in a woman rather they admit it or not.

It's true, that's me.

But do you know the cost of my Epitamy.

Do you know the price to pay to be the Quintessence of woman.

To be the spirit of things, the perfect example.

I blame no one for the desires of my heart, and the trials that they bring.

But this I didn't ask for, this thing here it's just me.

It's who I was born to be.

I was given the strength of our Mothers of long ago.

Of the Mothers who built this country, and who bore the burden of time
on their backs, shoulders, hands, and knees.

The strength of these Women have been imparted in me.

But that comes with a price.

The price of not being seen.

Think a little deeper because the meaning of that last line is not the
first thing that came to your mind.

Being strong for the world is one of the many burdens that I carry.

And sometimes for the sakes of others, my own pain I bury.

But I'm so young and if God permits it I have many more years to come.

And sometimes that thought is scary.

I don't fear life and I don't fear pain.

I don't fear heartache and I'll never fear the storm.

No matter how loud the thunder decides to roar.

Or how many times the lightning decides to strike.

Or no matter how hard the hail balls decide to storm.

I'm not hard hearted, my heart is actually open to all and filled with love.

I'm just strong.

And I know who my God is.

That's why I'm able to smile when my spirit is crying inside.

That's why I'm able to laugh when my soul is sobbing.

That's why I'm able to portray life, when on the inside I'm slowly dieing.

And the funny thing is, you're supposed to be able to find comfort in
the words that you write out.

You are supposed to be able to find comfort in the arms of a lover.

But...

All it does is allow other feelings to come and outshine the ones you
were feeling before.

Why do they always come back.

Because they never really went away.

They were just overshadowed.

Hideing in the crevacies of your being.

Waiting for the proper moment to strike.

Or maybe that's just how I feel because I'm angry inside.

But I write and talk to God because I don't want to be angry no more.

My playful sarcasm is only my anger finding a way to lash out.

I've been angry for years, although I don't show it.

I've been angry for years, all though many people don't know it.

Not even my closest friends, not relatives either.

One Great Man once said to me, "If it's one thing you do it's hide
your skeletons well."

And he was right.

But for me skeletons don't just represent things I've done that no one knows of.

Or the things I've done that only a few have wind of.

My skeletons are the bearers of emotions that I have chosen to lock away.

And even though they are no where to be seen, they still haunt me.

Why do I bare my soul to the world is something that you might ask.

Why don't I keep these things private where so no one else can see.

Do I bare it all because I'm searching for sympathy.

Maybe 1f me is.

And the other 99f me is not.

There is a little something in all of us that searches for sympathy.

But that part is buried so deep inside of me.

What is the point in haveing sympathy when it doesn't help.

So no I don't bare it all for sympathy.

I'm just giveing the world a little glimps of me.

Because the words of these poems don't even scratch the surface of me.

Yes yall I run just that deep.

And no I'm not cocky, and I'm not prideful.

I'm still.

And like the song states: "still waters run deep, yes they do"

 One tear drop from my eyes is the equivalent of the depth of  the Niagra.

And though I cry a million tears...

The earth still has to pour out the rain to finish the rest.

The hurricanes, the typhoons, the monsoons, just represent my tears
when I am at best.

Now when the whole earth floods into space, then you will understand
the depths of my tears.

Then you will know the depths of my soul.

Then you will know that I have passed away, because I would have been
released from the days anguish.

The emotions must be emptied somewhere when I leave this wretched place.

But don't get it twisted, I love to live, and I love to love.

I'm not complaining, and I don't wish it would end.

These are just a taste of the thoughts that I hold with-in.

Yes I am one word, plain and simple, Deep.

But even that is an understatement.



Title: Endless Love





Like a hole that is scientifically black, my love is endless.

For you my sweet my love has a depth uncharted.

It's endless, it's deep, it's unconditional, it knows no limits.

My love is endless.



Like the stars that shine bright in the sky by day and by night, my
love never fades away and like the supernovas, I explode when you're
near.

From the inside out with joy, happiness and cheer.

And like a building that implodes, I draw you to me, sucking you in.

Causing you to explode in ecstasy, from the outside in.

Making you feel like you're combusting spontaneously.

Rocking your world with my love, making you feel as if you've found
heaven right here on earth.

"I love you with a passion that burns with the intensity of a thousand suns."

My love is endless.



My love runs deeper than God's eyes can see.

I love you continuously, and I at times have the tendency, to let my
love for you over shadow me.

Making me look at this world differently.

I now understand the song through experienced ears, and an experienced heart.

"If loving you is wrong, then I don't wanna be right."

I'm in love with the feeling of being in love with you.

I wouldn't have it any other way. It's my soul's destiny to love you.
And I couldn't ask for a greater destiny than that.



To love you is my life's joy, and too my eye you are the apple.

To my soul you are the answer, and to my heart you are the key.

To my spirit you are what's needed, and to my being you are the one
who completes me.



My love for you runs endlessly like the space time continuum.

My love is endless.



Every day the flame burns brighter, and the temperatures rise.

The heat is so intense it's able to cause Satan's demise.

My love is endless.



Look into my eyes and read my soul and behold the deepness that is love.

Behold the flaming embers in my heart.

Behold the color that shines so bright.

"I know the color of love because it lives inside of you."

Yes, I now know the color which is truth.

I now know that when you find the genuine love, it's something that
you're glad you met, a love that is unforgettable, and a love that you
know will never fade, a love that will always roar with fervor.

That's when you begin to live out the cliché, "it's better to have
loved and lost than to have never loved at all."

You begin to realize that the person you could live without.

That might sound strange, but that's what happens when you surpass the
infatuation stage.

My love is endless.



A young love makes you feel as if you can't be without.

Because a young love has to be fueled, taken care of, nurtured. It has
to be fed.

Love either grows to maturity, or it grows out.

It's when you have a mature love you can stand to be without.

A mature love feeds off of itself, it's rejuvenating.

It's a love that never dies.

An in love kind of love grows to maturity of in love, or it either
grows into a love of maturity that breeds a deep friendship.  That's
if it doesn't burn out.

But this love that I have is an in love love, a love that's mature and true.

My love runs endlessly for you.