I'm like any other guy.. (or at least what we are conditioned to think of ourselves as being) - I've got a slight pre-occupation with the whole copulation thing... and at the moment it's really getting silly. I am thinking about it morning noon and night... I don't seem to be able to talk to a woman without imagining getting a blow job from them.

Not that I get to do it nearly as much as I'd like, and I'm not sure that the reality is even what I want. It's the whole imagination and fantasy of it. I've been in a relationship since.. well, last century, and that whole side of things has just faded away a bit. We both work, we're always tired and it so we don't do it a lot. That means that I don't last all that long when we do get around to it and it gets to be a vicious circle as, let's be honest, I'm probably not that great a ride!!

Sometimes I get a bit frustrated but I don't think I'd ever cheat though. I don't really want to be with another woman, although I do constantly fantasize about it. Sex is a pretty messy and haphazard old business and I guess I can't be bothered with the reality of it. The idea of it in my head drives me crazy though. Sharing those fantasies with anonymous women online has become a bit of an addiction.. and one I'm not looking to shake off. I'm bored of porn for a start. The web made it freely available and it lost its power. The excitement of something secret new, anonymous and pretty well harmless helps me get through my sexless relationship in a benign way.. well more benign than going to a 'professional' or cheating in the usual way... or maybe I just need to get something out of my system?